I weighed myself today, and it was eventful enough that I had to take a picture of it on my iPhone. My current weight is 201, which means I've completed my first goal (lose 10 pounds) and am super close to my second goal (get under 200 pounds). I told myself a couple weeks ago that when I got here I was going to post one of these pictures, but I'm just not feeling it.

So for those of you who could read yesterday's entry, I'm so frustrated. It's like the steps of grieving, and right now I'm set to "anger". I'm mad because I hurt. I'm mad at myself for letting myself be this hurt while there's so much worse going on all around me. I'm mad because there's always some stupid John between me and every girl I like. Even when I got the girl there was a John. I'm mad that our conversation was so vague. I'm mad that something so uncertain is keeping me from having my shot, in second place standing alone on the other side of a chasm. I don't even have the luxury to put a face on this guy. And in spite of it all, I'm spent the day chilling with friends and storyboarding Photoshops for Wednesday instead of doing homework.

Today I've been thinking about the concept of Pandora's Box a lot. Particularly, I wonder why they put hope in there. We don't put doctors in jail with prisoners so that in case the prisoners break out the doctors can repair the damage. Maybe it was in there because it was just as bad as everything else in the box. Maybe just how slander, greed, and lies were all released to agonize evildoers, hope was sealed in there to stop it from torturing the good.

So far I have lost six pounds. I've found a bunch of good things to eat which I will probably discuss in detail in a future post.

We're not here to talk about that though. Ever see those singing frogs in the store? Well, they make a Lil Jon one. YEEEEEEEEEEAH!

Also for people in the Philly area, they had a boxing match tonight between sportscaster Vai Sikahema and radio morning host Ben Dave Cruise (who works for BEN 95.7) called the broadcast brawl. I've been trying to find out the results for days. I listen to Cruise sometimes on the way to work, and then when I come home from work, my parents were watching it on television from Vai's side.

[Edit] Vai Sikahema won. Suck on it, person who probably won't take the time to read this.

Okay, today's goal. No dungeons. No dragons. No dice. No classes. No roleplaying in general. Let's see how that goes...

I had a half-day at work on Friday because things have been so slow right now. We're stuck at a bottleneck that's out of our hands so I went to the bank to get information about a CD although fieryatavian's advice sounds good as well. Basically, I'd get 5% over 5 months, although the guy was hellbent on Wachovia's 1337 new Way2Save. Basically, every time you charge something on your Wachovia card, you automatically invest one dollar into some special new account. I guess that's nice, but I don't even charge things to my card ten times a month, so what good is it?

At least with this plan, my bankers have sexual harassment training unlike those other heathens ( because... )

We had Chinese food tonight, and I found something new I enjoy: Chicken Stir Fry with Garlic Sauce. I was hoping that it was just going to be General Tso's except with a healthier form of chicken but it's definitely its own separate dish.

I've seen the actress Kerry Washington in a whole lot of things recently. My mom had Save the Last Dance on tonight, and this afternoon I finally watched the season premiere of Psych (It's back! It's back!") where she was Gus's wife. Of course, she was also Alicia Masters in the Fantastic Four movies where she dated the Thing. Sadly for her, he could never love her because the Thing...

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...just loves to fight!

Since my last post I have officially started dieting. This is now day four. Things are going relatively well. I've been eating Weight Watchers Flakes 'n Pomegranate for breakfast which is actually tastier than the Cheerios I had been eating before. My lunch is about half its previous size, and I've been doing soups rather than a sandwich. Dinnner's a mixed bag, most because my dad is too much a proud fool to stop forcing large heaps of pasta on everyone twice a week. I went to the gym two nights in a row now and battled through the obscene parking lot, although most of the lot is actually full due to the soccer games at the sports center next door. My starting weight was 213, and my first goal is to get under 200. I have no problem saying that aloud. In fact, I'm hoping that keeping the numbers public will help motivate me. I also tried a random trump card that I never would have considered before. I bought a small pack of the pill HydroxyCut at Target under the condition that if I begin experiencing any negative side effects I immediately stop. Personally, I think they're crap because I'm not experiencing any negative effects, but I'm not feeling any benefits either. Cookies still look delicious. I just can't eat them.

It's sad what passes for excitement in my life these days. I was thrilled this morning to log on to the My Heroes Ability application on Facebook and see that Sean hasn't fucked us all up with his stupid debuff powers. I hate that his memory manipulation powers last for four hours, but the counters like Precognition's future painting and Electricity's illumination last for about a half hour.

Speaking of places where I'm tired of Sean ever since he became addicted to being this wannabe Dean Prince of Darkness Dean, there's a D&D game Friday. The good news is that we'd be playing the actual long-term campaign and not yet another pointless one-shot. *confetti drops from ceiling* But the Psych premiere is that night too. *confetti floats back up to ceiling* I'd like to play something with enough continuity that the characters feel like actual characters with distinct names and personalities and not just "Hey it's Kim, and she's trying out the abilities of the sorcerer class today." Unfortunately, Dean already has another idea. So far all I've heard is that he's really limiting the classes. Warning: the following excerpt contains lots of things where you have to highlight the text to get my opinion:

So far I know, no Book of Nine Swords , no rogues, no arcane magic users, just and I quote "martial classes like fighter, paladin, and cleric".

Personally I think it sounds like we should try Iron Heroes instead, but Will and I are the only ones who like trying new things.

Okay, I know I have some crazy fans of The Office on here. Some of my coworkers saw my new Office gear and were talking about how much they like the show. Anyway, apparently a few people have been looking for that creepy poster of babies playing jazz that Angela has. Can anyone find a copy of this? Here's one shot of it, but it's in the background. If worst comes to worst, I might just build it from scratch.